in definite uncertainty,

where affairs of the heart matters
i've always been putting on a strong front.
the whole thing itself..is a whole lot of contradiction.

i want more but at the same time, not.
we can click, but at the same time, not.
i wanted to give you more, but at the same time, i can't bring myself to do it.
it's not that easy after all.
it's not about the do's and don'ts.
but more to disasters on both causes.
it's that complicated.

i wonder what's with all the diamond hoo ha about.
but one thing's for sure.
i wanted more of those smiles.
yes, both of you.
they lit up darkness on light-deprived occasions.
definitely maybe.

like a man on his own word,
i caught her avoiding those erotic flicks,
staring at the ground,
sporting an expressionless face, keeping quiet.
i was about to ask, disturb and tease.
till i thought i'd rather keep mum.

you're the cutest creature ever in an fcuk dress.

definitely maybe.

saturday spree
the file.
the tee.
the sneaks.
the choco indulgence.
the toy museum.
and of course, the pillow buddy.

i demand nothing else other than my money back.
let's see how far you could go.

no. i don't support any means of violence.
defintely maybe.

the results calls for a celebration.
it was a miracle. no doubt.

i'll still be a student.
i'll still frequent the east every weekday.
i'll still get stuck in the almost-daily traffic jams.
i'll still lead a hectic season like most students do.
i'll still be cracking heads and nuts for projects.
most importantly, i'll still believe in myself.

i'll come back stronger than a powered-up pac man.

and saturday seems forever.
i can't wait any longer.
i'm getting impatient and the anxiousness of it all is getting the better of me.

you are never on the target.

so what are you?

you are the most beautiful thing that ever happened to me.

definitely maybe.

i'm foreign to installation.

and i'm         tuckered out
       irritated
        run-down
          exasperated
      drained